hi there, mosess here (again)😋.
it’s been dead around here. did i actually complete my side projects and vanish? no. i point the finger at my eternal foot-dragging and a barrage of unexpected time-sucking life shenanigans. 6 months into 2024, and it’s been a whirlwind.
i was frazzled and swamped in january, job hunting while battling with final year hogging most of my brain power. despite the tedium, i surprisingly had a blast (not entirely). after quitting my full-time job early this year, i was curious if i’d be able to excel in the new field i was exploring (cloud engineering/devops) turns out both yes and no - my new career field shot me down & it stung, but i was able to keep my head up and keep pushing forward with freelance work.
oddly, now that i’m getting solid with gigs, i’m second-guessing if i will still go looking for full-time roles (i’m joking, i still am but it’s super hard to get a job now man). still untangling the whole thing, so we’ll see where it leads.
march brought me back to life after a whirlwind of shege. felt like everything was back in place but it was a facade. everything was going smooth, caught up with old pals, started going out to dj’ing gigs again, and even got back to my workout routine. but then, the world decided to throw me a curveball. i got hit with another wave of sadness. i’m fine now, but it was a wake-up call. i’ve been taking better care of myself since then, but it’s been a struggle. i’m still trying to find a balance between work, school, and life. it’s a work in progress.
& march flew by freaking out about existence and melting into my couch. nothing earth-shattering there. fast forqard to june, we are here now.
what’s the deal: swapped my early morning for deep work, bonus points if there’s electricity to get work done.
school and work’s been a mixed bag. given how much it matters to me, it’s been a major source of tension lately. big choices, heavy consequences, loads of jitters.
year kicked off, like always, with content goals. list includes but isn’t limited to getting new gadgets, travelling. owning a car (yes a car) (and many more 🤫), i’ve barely scratched the surface so far. but we are onto something
i’m pretty chuffed about sticking to my workouts. starting to dig the punishing gym sessions. plus, i’ve got a killer coach who keeps me in line and busts my cheating attempts. pumped to level up my eating habits. experimenting with new recipes, all dummy-proof of course. digging the research, which might justify the insane phone time. this new kick also gave me an excuse to splurge, which if you know me, is my jam.
feeling creatively tapped out lately. my job demands quick thinking and out-of-the-box ideas, yet here i am, inspiration-dry. maybe a getaway’s in order. or maybe just leaving the house and hanging with friends more. perhaps a visit to the folks. we’ll see.
small wins for a mood boost-
picked up drawing now, now doing some sketches.
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slowly getting my dj groove back - call me for your paties joor
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writing more (i’ve got loads of drafts)
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if i do say so myself, i’ve gotten better at engineering.
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bruh i’m about to graduate, can’t believe this shit (1month to go!)
progress. finally. i’ve revamped my resume, it’s ATS standard now, i’m happy coz i swear it took a lot of blood and sweats. i made headway on my portfolio (though, as i type this - i’ve hit a wall and haven’t budged in weeks.)
i’ve almost completed my studio’s website. (ablix.studio)
but we are heading somewhere yunno.
love yourz always - j.cole